I have always had these weird dreams. I know how weird this may sound, but I have even had dreams that made no since at all and the next day, as the day past by, the dream would make since as the day would go by and the day would lay out. This doesnt happen often, more so when I was pregnant, but it does happen. I had an arrand to run this morning and my radio has been acting up, so I was riding in silence kinda just lost in thought.
I lost my cousin about a month and a half ago, she was almost 2 years older than me. Me, her, and her twqo sisters, we were really close as small kids. As time had passed, they moved away. I moved down where they lived in my teens after my dad got sick. Me and her older sister got really close, for one because my cousin that just passed was, at that time, just married and beginning to start a family. But we always stayed close.
She came to visit close to a month before she passed. I was working 3rd shift so when she came over I was asleep and my mom was there watching my little girl because she was sick and out of school. I was in the middle of this dream. In this dream, I was at my house and I was the only one there. I started a fire in my daughter's room and walked out, but immedially got scared and came back into her room and put the fire out. I was then all the sudden outside, and had been for a little while. I dont know why, but I needed to go back into her room for something. When I got into her room, I lifted the pillow where I started the fire and it was still blazing, then I looked up and the whole room was in flames!! I was running around the room, trying to find some way out and I remember thinking to myself that I would die if I couldnt get out, and I was really scared! Just as I was like going to the window or something........A loud noise woke me up!!!! It was my cousin. She had came over to see me and my family before she went back home (bout 4 hours away!!). She was laughing I guess and it scared the shit out of me! lol. I dont remember what she said after she laughed, but I was really mean to her and I thru my pillow at her and told her to get out of the room, hell I had JUST woke up. I heard her walk out and I was shaking from the dream cause it really scared me. I layed there feeling really bad for being mean and got up and raced downstairs to see if she was still there. SHE WAS!!! I told her that I was sorry, that I had a bad dream and she scared me. She had brought her husband, two of her daughters, and me and my mom and daughter were here too. She immediatally asked me what the drea was about and I told them. My mom laughed at me cause I remembered it so well, but my cousin took u for me and told me bout how she had lots of nightmares after her trailer burned down, and she could remember alot of them like they were movies she had watched.
A month later my mom called me and told me that she passed away. She died in a house fire. They told us that she was taking some of her anxiety meds and was cooking something on the stove. The .whole house, besides her bedroom and bathroom, was completely gone. But she was in her room, they said it looked as though she had fell asleep on the bed. She died of smoke inhalation, but the fire did get to her alittle. I wasnt able to get down there cause of money issues, but I tryed really hard to get there!! I missed it though.
This morning, when I was riding and off in thought, she came to mind right before I got home. I was thinking about how young her four kids are and out of the blue that dream came to mind. I immedatally called my mom and told her about how the dream came to mind and that it seemed alot like what happened to my cousin. Usually she forgets everything, you can be talking about something you and her did last week and she will be like 'you know what, I really dont even remember being there!'. But she remembered this. Not only did she remember it, she reminded me about how my cousin was telling about her dreams after the trailer fire. I dont know if it meant anything, I kinda doubt it, but it really seems like I somehow knew or something else did. I dont know, but I wish I woulda put all this together before she died, then maybe I could have stopped it or at least she wouldnt have been in there.
This probably makes no since at all, and if it does, it sounds stupid. But I didnt have anyone to share this with. Have you ever had anything weird happe to you? Have you ever seen our heard anything strange or something you knew wasnt right. I have heard things and had the crazy dreams, but thank goodness I have never seen anything!! I dont think I could deal with that at all! And I sure as hell wouldnt ever go back to where ever I had seen something at. I am a scaredy cat and proud of it! lol..
Thanks so much for reading this crazy blog and I wont post anymore weirdo ones, I promise! lol. I said to you guys and a few of my friend that I was gonna start researching about some organizing stuff and some of those little dohickies that help you store alot of stuff in small places, I really am like crazy interested bout it all. But I cannot lie, I havent done anything about it! I usually go to walmart and get my beginning ideas and price things, then I go online and read up on some of it and go to afew web pages and check out all those neat thing that I could never buy! lol. But I dont know what the hell is going on with me!! I almost always procrastinate important stuff, but never my little hobby projects. I just been hanging at the house. Havent even really hung with my friends lately, me and my other cousin's wife usually chill almost everyday and before yesterday, I hadnt seen her in almost a week. Havent been in walmart in close to 2 weeks, and that is like my therapy, I love love love chilling at walmart, wallking around checking stuff out, even if I only got afew bucks. But oh well, I will shake it off and be out and about in no time at all!!
Well guys, I got a dirty house and it aint gonna clean itself.......or will it!?! lmao!
Til next time, bye guys.............
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